For five and a half years, I've been doing the same thing.
Not in my life... Wow, my life has changed dramatically in the last five and a half years. I love who I am and who I have around me so much, and much of that has come from this stretch of my life. It's been an amazing ride.
But I've had the same job for the last five and a half years. And it's been good to me! But I've had my share of longings for something else. Longing for a place that I'm passionate about, for something I can't wait to do every day. Wishing for something that not only keeps me busy, but keeps me engaged and excited with my daily work. Something that doesn't leave me wanting to browse the internet instead of doing my work.
I've sent in the occasional resume to job positions that look intriguing to me, and last week, I got a call for an interview. On Monday, I took that interview. It's for an accounting position at the Church Office Building.
The interview went well on my end. After a LOT of anxiety and nervousness beforehand, once I was in the office, talking with two men who could be my future bosses, all of that anxiety melted away and I felt comfortable and at ease speaking with them. I left that conference room, and immediately began wondering about my future. Could I work for the church? It'd certainly be a more conservative environment than where I work now. I'd have to wear a skirt every day. But I'd work for a company that drives me, that I'm passionate about.
In the end, I'd still be doing accounting. I'd still be doing work that currently leaves me bored or uninterested at times. Do I want change because this change is good and is coming from God? Or do I want change for change's sake? Is this more of the same thing, just packaged as a "new" opportunity? If I don't get that call tomorrow for a second interview, all of this questioning will have been for nothing. And I'll still be here, doing something that I like, that pays me well, that keeps me productive. But not something I love.
If I do get that call, if I take that job... will it still just be a lack of something to love?
